My feeble attempt to keep track of my pregnancy :p
On the 15th September, we went for our 2nd gynae check~
"You'll see your baby in the waterbag, not a bean bag anymore!" says my Doctor!
And true, we can see his little head and little legs (not fully formed thou)
It has a heartbeat now and the doctor played it for us~ wahaha!
The red part you see in that scan is the blood flowing inside of it~
It is now 14.14mm big! Like my 3 weeks of hell has seen its worth finally!
I said 3 weeks of hell? Hell yes! Since the 22nd of August~
Within the time span of 12 hours that day we had 4 tests!! www
When the first double line showed in the first kit, my reaction was totally cool~
My first thought was "spoil already ah?" www
To be honest, we have stopped all contraceptive methods since we got married.
But good news never came, we tested for my ovulation and shockingly to know...
I do not ovulate every month! T_______T
This baby may have gathered all our luck in this life to come into this world.
Like winning a jackpot! Lol! And it's made-in-japan! Bwahahaha!
Our last self-test was on the 23rd August morning~ using a digital one.
It's so advance now that they can show how long the baby has been conceived!!
At that point, I was still feeling well physically but the mood was a very mixed one.
Since we are certain of the little one's existence, le husband seems genuinely elated!
Happier then I am it may seems, I was scared and shocked and lots of random feelings
There was fear because I know changes ahead are unknown and I hate it.
There was shocked because we weren't expecting it so much now.
There was joy because we hit the jackpot! Despite not ovulating as per norm.
There was a part of sadness to let go of the shoujo me because I need to grow up
There was excitement because there is a new life inside of me now!
There was anticipation because I want to know its gender like right away!
There was worried because financially it clashes with our new home reno.
The shoujo me, hahahha, seems the most difficult to let go~
Before my complicated emotions are being sort out, comes the hell!
Morning sickness started gradually coming at me at the end of august!
First, it was the mild nauseous feeling after meals...
Then, the giddiness started in the morning when I wake up...
At that point of time I thought, ok lah, never vomit yet still ok right?
Just a few days time, I vomited my first meal.
Following with no more comfy days until this present moment typing this post.
At good times, I just feel unwell and nauseous, well enough to not throw up.
At the worse times, I throw up every single edible stuffs that goes in!
Including plain water! You cannot imagine how much I hate plain water now.
I cant take milk but I can take soy milk, fizzy drinks and fruit juices. Water? Yucks!
Everyone has been asking me if I am having cravings yet.
The answer is no, totally no! In fact the thought of eating can make me nauseous.
But then there are indeed some food that the baby deem worthy!
Like Macdonals, Mos Burger, Starbucks Cheesecake, Instant Milk Cereal...
Yeah, expensive baby right?
No doubt what you see there is a caffeine drink, judge me, I dont really care!
I have specifically asked my gynae what to not take and what to take more.
And I like his answer "Just eat anything you want" Lovely...
Like how most Chinese are superstitious on the disclosure of pregnancy after first trimester...
I don't really care, I don't really care, I really don't care. Hahaha~
Mainly anything not scientifically proven are not going to be input into me.
But I do take well meant advices by simply nodding and not arguing.
It is a blessing to have people giving you advices and their concerns.
Just, being convinced is another thing.
I do avoid caffeine as much as possible but not totally abstracting it.
I still drink only cold water because that is the only plain water that doesn't make me puke.
I started eating fish despite having a constant dislike of having them before preg.
I totally threw my 15cm high heels in one corner because I don't want to fall.
So I do have my baby's interest at heart
And, even though I have yet to talk to my gynae about it (only able to after first trimester)
I have long ago, even before pregnancy, decided that I will go for caesarian.
Not the orthodox kind of mother who thinks only natural birth is worthy *snorts*
Thou, it is really the pain that scares the hell of me about natural birth.
Yes I am the coward here, but seriously, I dont care how other thinks about this decision.
I do support breastfeeding and will try my 200% in supplying :p
Speaking of the gynae, I am going to Dr Hii from the Hii Woman Clinic in Khatib.
He is the bff's gynae and le bff recommends him so much of course I trust!!
Dr Hii gives off the kind elderly aura that calms and ease your negative feelings~
I have decided to let him do my caesarian section.
One thing good about pregnancy, you naturally become queen!
Meet my handsome butler, Shawn! Hahahaha!
Actually, more like the husband naturally treats you like a queen.
I can imagine how helpless he is seeing me vomit and being grumpy feeling unwell.
There is practically nothing he can do to ease the hell I am going through.
So I guess, he started being super (he already is) attentive of my every detail.
I think he is genuinely excited and happy about this baby!
But then, I think the most excited person is my bff, Alice~
She was the first person I thought of breaking the news to even in the middle of the night.
She has been all supportive, giving me all the pregnancy advices to ease me.
I generally in the first two weeks bombarded her with 101 questions randomly...
And she is always patience and answers all my question<3
It's so good to have her around, makes lesser fear in my pregnancy journey!
Okay, thats all for now.
While I go deal with my nauseousness
Cannot wait till the day I wake up and feel totally alright!
3 more weeks! I am 8weeks and 5days now!
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